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Slave To Money

What is your relationship to money? Is money your comfort, your god, your friend, your master, servant, lover?

I have morning classes every Tuesday and Thursday. In order to avoid the dreaded morning jams, i will wake up at 6am and be on my way to coll at 6.30am. I'll arrive at 7.00am and stone in the cafeteria till class starts.

Every single time i stone in cafeteria, I will see the same old faces. However, one particular face will always catch my attention. Its a kinda haggard women around the age of 40 to 50. Let me just state that I AM NOT INTO OLDER WOMEN/COUGARS/WHATEVER YOU CHOOSE TO CALL IT AND I AM NOT A STALKER. She just happen to be there every time.

Anyway, back to topic. Why is my attention on her? Reason being, she will always bring her own coffee powder, a canister of boiling water, a cup and cookies/breads. Every morning she will make her own cup of boiling hot coffee and eat her breakfast at the same old corner of the cafeteria.

Well, initially i feel its kinda cool cause me and Zhi always crap about how broke we are and we should bring our own cup noodle everyday and make it in foyer to eat accompanied by sadistic violin songs. However, as i look at her, i noticed something else. She does not smile at all. Every time i see her, she wears that same old sad and dull face.

She might be sleepy but for the sake of the post, we shall assume that she is not happy with her job cause that was the first thing that ran through my mind when i saw her sad and dull face. The next thing that came up was "Did she take up the job just for money?"

When i ask a lot of my friends why are they taking that particular course, most of them will give me the same old answers. "Its cheap" or "When I graduate, I can get a high paying job". Money, everything ultimately boils down to money. I have to agree, money is important but is it worth it? Is it so important that we give up our happiness for it?

I can't answer that question myself as I myself has taken the same road. This made me think, did i choose the right path? What if i end up like that women in the cafeteria, wearing the same old sad, dull weary face. Will I be one of them? Will I somehow find a way to like what I am doing now? That's the question to me and to all of you as well. Have you ever done something solely for money and is it worth it?

As for me, i guess only time will tell.

A little update, exam is around the corner, not looking too good for me. Wish me luck. Mostly wont be blogging till after exam.

Stupid Dream!

I need a break!!! Someone point a gun at me and just pull the trigger please!!!
I dont want to study!!! I dont wanna I dont wanna I dont wanna!!!
I need a way to release stress effectively and without anyone dying (zzz)

Can you believe i actually dreamt of not being able to finish my revisions on time? Thats just sick and lame... To top it of, when i woke up... i was lying on the cold hard floor... face first... with the worst headaches i ever had... I seriously need to chill a bit but how the F@#K do i chill when the exam's next week...

I am light years away from completing my F9 revision and i barely touched my F8... and that small little B@#%H in college is giving us hell by implementing all kinds of I@#$%^C pt specials... If we dont study, we just dont ok? Get that through your retarded piece of S@#T that you call a brain.

Ok, maybe that was uncalled for... but i need someway to release stress... the only way i can think of is blasting that growth deficit I@#$T... I know it's all my fault that I am in this F@#$%D up situation... I should have studied sooner... but I'm just a normal guy... and normal guys dont study day and night... (zzz)

Seriously someone just shoot me and end my miserable life... FML

Ps : something fun for you guys... guess what swear words i used... (xD)

What!? Again!? Sure ar!?

Yes people, I'm starting up my blog again. However this time, i wont be announcing it to anyone. I'll just let them discover it by themselves. The reason is.... well lets face it... i have super weak self discipline and every time i start blogging again, I'll eventually give up after 2 to 3 months and people will be like "expected la". So this time no announcement. (LOL)

So why am i blogging again? Well, lets just say I'm trying to improve myself and being diligent in blogging may contribute a little to my weak and almost non existent self discipline. It might be just a small thing, but to me, if we cant even do the small things right, how are we suppose to get the big stuff done? Right?

A little update about what i have been doing for the past 8 months. Basically...

1. Going to a new gym to try and reduce weight, results are slow but consistent
2. Studying... well just started not too long ago actually (xD)
3. Improving my guitar skills
4. Making new friends
5. NOT BLOGGING... pretty obvious... (xD)

Well, basically that's it. Mostly focused on myself and trying my best to be a better human being. Well, if you guys noticed, i have removed a fair bit of the blogs that i put at the side. Reason being that, ACCA friends all have too little time to blog and a number of them actually deleted their blog and some blogs have been privatized so no point putting it there. Its not cause i don't like you anymore ok?

Songs in this blog will be a bit on the slow and emo side cause I'm going through that whole "FML" phase again. (Why does this keep happening to me? zzz) Well that's it for now i guess, just a totally random post to get things started. Hope you guys don't mind, I just wrote whatever that comes into mind. No structure what so ever... so yea... that's it for now.